No matter how much you prepare yourself it's never an easy day when the anniversary of a loved ones death comes around. I've tried so hard to keep myself busy this week and pretend like it's insignificant, but I can't avoid it anymore. I keep remembering what my life was like a year ago; I had refinanced my car and was excited for my new interest rate, Mike and I had decided to move in together, and we were planning our first family photo session for the coming weekend. I can't stop thinking about how easy life was then, and I keep coming back to this video I took of Olivia the night before she passed away. I wish so badly that I could go back to that day and change everything.
I get sad, but then I see how happy she was. She felt no pain, had no worries, and she knew how much she was loved. She had an amazing 11 months and it helps to know that she touched so many lives in such a short time. I'm so incredibly lucky to have been her Mom.
So on a happier note, we've declared March 14th - April 15th (Livvy's Bday) Olivia Month! In a previous post I explained why I have chosen to keep fresh flowers in my home in her memory, and we are also participating in Spring for SIDS month.
We will be raising money in Olivia's name. All proceeds go to The American SIDS Institue, which is dedicated to the prevention of sudden infant death syndrome and the promotion of infant health through research, education and family support.
For those of you in Oregon who would like to participate, we will be holding an event for her Birthday on Saturday, April 13th. I will send an invite out for that soon :)
For those out of State who would like to participate, you can make a donation at our
Thank you so much for all of your support. It's been a tough year to say the least, but with the love and support of all of my family and friends, it was bearable. Olivia was lucky to have all of you!